Sometimes when the world seems to be spinning too fast and I enter into what I call a ‘bipolar epsiode’ I find at the end of the tears, meltdowns and irrational thoughts, I get a breakthrough. There is not one meltdown without a huge ‘a ha’ moment.

Almost like a rainbow after a devastaing storm.

Not saying that this makes the episodes any easier to deal with but when I get the pull I know I am supposed to listen and learn the lesson my soul is trying to teach me.

Sitting quielty (as quielty as I can with an 8 year old, 2 Frenchies, a husband and life happening around me) and I tried to listen. Its never easy to stop and listen for me. I always feel like I need to do something to keep my brain from spiraling into darkness.

As I sat listening I felt the urge to watch a horror. This may seem to odd to some because you would think I would got for something a little less chaotic but I am not afraid to say that I LOVE HORROR’S. I used to hate them as they scared the shit out of me when I was younger, but now I love a good old horror.

Especially supernatural ones. I degress.

I searched and searched for something I hadn’t seen and to my surprise I found one quite quickly. Annabelle Comes Home 2019, jumped out at me. Now, I want to get this fact in before I spiral into my actaul point, this wasn’t the greatest horror I have watched but for the purpose of what came out of it, it was what I needed at the time.

I watched intently as the main female character saw her spirits standing at the cemetary gates and at that moment it hit me. She was a clairvoyant medium I believe and she could see and speak to spirits. My beautiful brain began to whizz and I remebered something I researched a while back.

The 5 Clair Sences literally slapped me clear across the face. Flapping like an excited school girl I grabbed my phone and started researching clairsentience. My heart nearly exploded I was so excited.

There are many different clair sences that people write about on the internet but the only ones I was aware of was clairvoynace (seeing), clairaudience (hearing), clairsentience (feeling) but looking further into this there are many more.

For the purpose of this post we are going to look into Clairsentience.

The word clairsentience has popped up before within my life and I don’t know why I didn’t get this excited then but this felt explosive. Feeling has been something that I had been writing into my content, I had been sating and I was becoming super aware that it was something I needed to take note of.

Being different has always left me feeling lost. I won’t bore you with my childhood stories but I was a strange little wee one. Being clairsentient was a huge part of being young and without a Mum. I could hold peoples hands, or things and know things that I couldnt have known about the object/person. My feelings have always been a problem within the bipolar diagnosis. I have always said I FEEL on surround sound. Being an empath makes me like a sponge to peoples emotions and energies and I can’t stand being around too many at once because it can send me a loopy.

The pull I felt was almost like my soul telling me to channel my clairsentience abilities so I can begin to feel clearly. The meltdown I briefly mentioned was quite a horrific one. I thought I was going to lose myself so this realisation that came from ‘somewhere’ was a true blessing in disguise.

The more I research, recognise and become aware of my abilities the more I feel like I am coming home – (Annabelle Comes Home 2019). The films genre and storyline nudged me into researching something that has built a connection to my clairsentient abilities.

My point?

Apart from the fact I wanted to share this HUGe realisation I also wanted to reach out to anyone else who feels like they are clairsentient and are struggling with their emotions. Maybe your soul is trying to tell you something like mine did. Maybe this is your sign to research your abilities and stop trying to hide them all the time.

You are special, this is a fact. If you are not being your true self for whatever reason then this will be showing up in the universes plan for you. Throw all caution to the wind and really settle into the body you have been given and the soul (or souls) that have been incarnated within you. Stop trying to be someone you are not and embrace the fact you are different.

The world needs what you are offering.

Love you muchly.

Abby x

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